Monday, January 27, 2020

TWENTY FIVE - "Happy Birthday Brother Steve"

Tina, Yvette, MOM, Brother Steve....finally together!

"Our little Family"


Thru the skill of some wonderful volunteers on a Face Book page the group "Random Acts of Photograph Kindness", this photo was created. It's a Great group of people that volunteer their time to restore old photographs, check them out if you get a chance - their work is amazing. 
A sweet heart of a woman took a small color photo of my sister and I (1990), a B/W photo of our mom (1956) and a B/W pic of brother Steve (1978) ....and made  them into a meaningful keepsake for "Brother Steve's" 69th Birthday. Another member colorized the photo and I retouched a few areas that had no definition. I realize that this is Not real, it's only a Fantasy photograph, but it is nice to have a visual of a family which sadly were never all together.


I suddenly decide to search

There are times when the loss of my sister Tina is like a massive stabbing in my heart....it almost takes my breathe away. My sister is the ONLY person who shared any memories of our mom, went thru the struggle of moving all the time, and all the other challenges we faced. It's unerving that she is gone. Even being with my husband since I was 16 years old is NOT the same as the bond I shared with my sister. Yet in some strange way I think the loss of my sister Tina in 2009 and then our father in 2018 kicked me into action. IF not for those 2 deaths, I doubt I would have had the urge to find out what ever happened to our mother, and to search for our brother Steve.


I am counting my Blessings

There are Many blessings that have happened to me because of my exhaustive search. I could never have guessed that staying up til 3AM could result in finding any family...and that it could change my life in such a Good way!

I have found so many Wonderful people that I can call "my Family" 
They are members of MY Tribe, they share my DNA, & they are my ONLY link to my mother. My mother, the evasive "Lenora Anne Jennings" who is STILL missing after all my searching. But hey mom, I know Your family....and Luv them! Something I Never thought would happen....and Best of all mom, I found "Brother Steve" and we talk a few times a month! 
You know, the baby you cried about when I was a small child. The son I am sure you Never thought you would ever see, or know about.
YES there are Wonderful Blessings in my life, they in no way can fill the void left in my heart BUT my heart is filled with JOY. I am SO damn Lucky.

And just watch me because "ONE DAY" I WILL find my mom 

"LENORA ANNE JENNINGS"